Lately I’ve been feeling like I cannot find the motivation or inspiration within myself to be who I want to be and do the things that I’ve always wanted to do for me. It is internally frustrating for me when I feel stuck in a rut, when I desperately want to be struck with a lighting bolt of encouragement and passion, and yet, find nothing.
I believe that a huge chunk of the problem is that I never even took the time to analyze what it is that I really want out of life and what kind of person I wanted to be. I often thought that the direction and inspiration would just hit me and then I would instantly know and want to pursue what I have been blindly searching for. Now I realize that this isn’t the case; you must be open and curious with your eyes wide open in order to be inspired.
I chose to name my blog, “Something Beautiful” after my favorite song by Needtobreathe for this specific reason:
In an interview with Bo from Needtobreathe, he said, “When I wrote “Something Beautiful”, I was in a pretty desperate state. I kinda felt like I hadn’t seen anything truly inspiring in awhile. And we’re taught that inspiration is just around the corner, but the problem is, it may not be until the fifteenth corner that we finally see it. We talk about that risk and we use a metaphor in the verse of being “ankle deep in the ocean” but “the water is rising quick” and the tide’s coming in, y’know, am I gonna drown, in search of this thing that i’ve been looking for. But I believe that anything worth having, is worth the risk of losing it.”
As the semester winded down, I began making a list of things that I want to accomplish this summer. This list has been rapidly growing as I think of more things I forever have wanted to do. One item on this list is being consistent in posting blogs at least weekly. I don’t always have the opportunity to share my thoughts and express myself or even take the time to press the pause button and reflect on my life and thoughts.
I want to use this blog to help me see the inspiration the fifteenth time around the corner. I have realized how important it is to take the time to do things for me and to allow myself to be inspired. I have to be patient, for it will take time to finally be touched by that something beautiful. I must not allow the busyness of everyday to paralyze me and disable me from seeing and experiencing all the beautiful somethings life has to offer me.
Another item on this list: sketching. I doodle on my notebook just as much as any other girl but I never took it seriously or as a way of expressing myself, but I’ve always wanted to. I have just began this hobby of mine and am loving every minute of it thus far! Here’s a preview of my first sketch:) It’s pretty rough, but I’m learning!
I will share more of these hobbies as I begin them during the summer. Keep an eye out!
Please take the time to watch the video of Needtobreathe playing this wonderful song that I cannot get enough of. Song: Something Beautiful by Needtobreathe
Lyrics:
In your ocean, I’m ankle deep
I feel the waves crashin’ on my feet
It’s like I know where I need to be
But I can’t figure out, yeah I can’t figure out
Just how much air I will need to breathe
When your tide rushes over me
There’s only one way to figure out
Will ya let me drown, will ya let me drown
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, ’cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I’m in reach
‘Cause I am down on my knees, I’m waiting for something beautiful
Oh, something beautiful
And the water is risin’ quick
And for years I was scared of it
We can’t be sure when it will subside
So I won’t leave your side, no I can’t leave your side
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, ’cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I’m in reach
‘Cause I am down on my knees, I’m waiting for something beautiful
Oh, something beautiful
In a daydream, I couldn’t live like this
I wouldn’t stop until I found something beautiful
When I wake up, I know I will have
No, I still won’t have what I need
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, ’cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I’m in reach
‘Cause I am down on my knees, I’m waiting for something beautiful
Oh, something beautiful (fade out)
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